notes from outside

The nightmares are growing in their intensity, causing me to question my very sanity. Tonight’s ‘double bill’ featured fascism as a theme, with two words in a blank journal which when connected with words from another book were a threat to the group think that led to  much angst and stealth, a British friend named Barney my confidant and co-conspirator, another man a fearful ally of sorts. The dreams were tinged with a deep red splotchiness, not at all unlike blood and madness. Each time I woke, I lay in the dark petrified by fear. Mother woke me from the first nightmare, but despite her having played a prominent role in the dream, I could do little more than mutter a few disconnected words, my throat choked with fear, consciousness a distant shore.

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